Monday, February 23, 2009

Taylor's nose

We went down to Jean's to visit Taylor today...she was staying home from school and went there to stay. I don't think it was the best thing for her. I think she should have stayed home, in bed. The poor kid is so pale and uncomfortable. Her nose looks great though and there is no swelling to speak of, but I know how she feels, the whole framework of her face aches!

I was jealous, she managed to do the sinus lavage herself....I still haven't managed to do one properly! Everytime I do the Neti Pot, the stuff goes into the wrong places and burns, burns, burns!

Oh well...Tay gave me some hints about what I might be doing wrong. I'll try, try again!

I didn't feel very good, all day. I probably shouldn't have gone down to Jean's. I ended up sleeping on the couch (well, dozing and waking when the dogs would jump on me, or bark or whatever)....the whole time. When I got home I went right to bed and slept for two hours.

Tomorrow we take Frank to the casino for dinner and our usual "donation" to the Mohegans. I'm going to sleep alot to be in good shape to go out.

I don't want to get run down for Wednesday, which is when I'm having a house full of company--my old work pals are coming for "Ladies Night Out." Lynne is coming up early to help set things up for me. I have to make chili in the AM and put it in the crock pot to simmer. I really appreciate Lynne coming...it would tire me out to have to do all the work that it's going to take to get ready.

Boy, do I hate that! I feel helpless a lot lately. I know it's going to pass soon, when I stop the "big chemo sessions" but in the meantime, I keep getting blind-sided by this fatigue. It's hard to admit that I can't do the things I used to be able to handle, no sweat. It's hard to watch other people doing things for me and to have to rely on them to take care of me.

It's hard, but may that be the worst thing that happens! Fatigue is a piece of cake to deal with, compared with other problems I could be having. The other side effects are minimal and not very difficult to deal with.

Looking forward to tomorrow night and Wednesday night. It's a great week!

Nighty night.

3 comments:

SueBear said...

Folks say asking for help is the hardest thing to do. While I agree that it is difficult, it's the accepting the help that I've always found to be the hardest part of the whole deal. I'm getting better at it so be patient with yourself. It gets better! Think of this as AFGO... A(another) F(flipping) G(growth) O(opportunity). I find that helps me...

moomag said...

Tell all the work ladies I send hugs from Delaware and will send warm weather whenver the hell we get it!

Jim & Carol said...

Hang in there lady, it took Jim a full 4 wks this last time (#6) to start feeling human. He sleeps many 12 hr shifts, eats a little and back to bed. Be glad you don't have to spend 5 straight days with that chemo dripping in you!