And the answer is....

Surgery first, chemo second.

I'll probably have the surgery either Dec 1st or the following Monday. I haven't been getting the Avastin since March. So, it was exactly how I thought it would be....I would get the Avastin early on and when it came to the "extension" of the study, I wouldn't get it. And that's how it was. I guess the power of suggestion made me ignore the signs that I WASN'T getting it....no more nose bleeds, blood pressure going back to normal, etc.

So I'll have the surgery and then I'll start the chemo...but this time only six rounds of the heavy duty stuff and then I'm DONE!!!! No Avastin in this trial.

I'm glad I'm having the surgery, despite the risks and the side effects (UGH) from the anesthesia and the morphine. I will be rid of my remaining ovary and I assume they will take my uterus out too. Maybe I can get rid of the hot flashes and night sweats. I won't have to go through more ovarian cysts!

I can handle the six rounds of chemo. The thought of having to go another year plus was a bit daunting, but now I won't have to do that. The side effects from the chemo are not pleasant, but at least I know what they are and I know what to do to minimize them. I won't have nose bleeds this time (no Avastin); my blood pressure should stay good and maybe I won't have the diarrhea either. I'll be tired, but heck, it will be winter...I can hibernate!

I'm relieved I have the answer and I like the answer. All's right with the world.

Sending positive thoughts and energy to Harvey and to Tommy! Get better guys!

Nighty night!